When you have a vision for a shot and that shot doesn't come to fruition, nothing will make you satisfied.
I left this portrait session feeling unsatisfied and numb. Don't get me wrong, Lauren is stunning and the shots turned out good, but not what I wanted to create, not what I envisioned; because of that I left deflated and questioning what went wrong. What did go wrong? Did I not direct properly to invoke the right emotion? Did I not have the right wardrobe put together? Do I need a different light modifier to create the look I want? What am I lacking that kept me from creating my vision?
These are the questions I ask myself when I miss the mark on self prescribed expectations. It's mind numbing but true, and I think it's true for a lot of photographers and artists. You're friends, colleges, family members, etc. will support you through these struggles, but I don't find that helpful when I need unadulterated truth that will break me free from creative barriers. I want more. I crave more. When good isn't enough and great is the only word that will work to satisfy my creative demand.
I share these stories in the hope they resonate with you and give peace in knowing you're not alone in the struggle. I know this story may seem a bit depressing but it really isn't, I'm not. It's just a glimpse into my creative process. After all, we are story tellers are we not?
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